Dari tadi dia itu mondar-mandir di kamarnya. Duduk, berdiri, tidur, berdiri lagi, duduk lagi, tidur lagi. Semua itu dia lakukan berulang-ulang. Ada gelisah yang sedang bertempat tinggal di hatinya. Ada sekumpulan resah yang memukul-mukul dadanya. Perasaannya sedang tidak tenang.

Rindu.

Kata-kata itu tiba-tiba muncul lagi di hatinya. Sudah begitu lama dan hampir saja hatinya membeku. Tapi sekarang tiba-tiba kebekuan itu mencair lagi entah oleh apa dan entah bagaimana. Tiba-tiba saja.

Rindu itu perasaan yang manusiawi, dia sangat sadar hal itu. Tapi kerinduannya kali ini terasa begitu salah. Dia membencinya. Dia membenci dirinya sendiri yang selalu seperti ini.

Tapi pada dasarnya rindu itu sesuatu yang manusiawi kan?

Karena kita berperasaan maka kita punya kerinduan. Iya kan?

Jadi apakah sebentuk hati salah bila merindukan?

Salahkah?

how many times ? i alone in here

thinking about you when i should be with you my dear

don't understand why i put myself through all this pain

when you're the reason why i sit here going insane

and i tried my best not to think of the past

but i won't forget what we both use to call true love

when i wake up in the morning and [s]he's not here

i just can't accept the fact that these are my tears

and i hate missing you, i hate missing you

tried to block it out my mind but it's just a waste of time

because i'm missing you, yes i do i hate missing you

memories of you just won't seem to go away

i tried to block it out every single day

my heart is heavy with the things that you use to say

now in the back of my mind the argument just replays

and i tried my best not to think of the past

but i won't forget what we both use to call true love

when i wake up in the morning and she's not here

i just can't accept the fact that these are my tears

and i hate missing you, i hate missing you

tried to block it out my mind but it's just a waste of time

because i'm missing you, yes i do i hate missing you

(Corte Ellis - I Hate Missing You)